happy birththay, bf.

promised myself i shan't write personal anymore
seemed like i had to live with that decision
and I have.
but today is your birthday
and i wish I could spit you right between the eyes.
because my best friend once told me
we shan't ever not talk anymore
to a point where I couldn't even congratulate him
on this special day.
i'm so mad at you, can't even look at you, leave alone speak
can't believe the way you left
the lies, the cheating. again.
but most of all I can't believe the way
it was so easy for you to ditch me
and not for a second look back
not one word of truth, not one.
it would be a lie if i wished my ex-lover a happy birthday.
but after all
it wouldn't be a lie
if i wished it to my best friend.