Life after death

I will tell you a secret I have discovered
Life after death.
After I've shown you mine
You've shown me yours
And it was not like
We were two little boy and girl
Showing their vulnerable spots
Down in their pants and skirt
No. Our vulnerable spots were
Above the belly button, behind our ribs
We each tried to kill ours, in different time-frames
In different lives
There were once a little boy that wanted to know
What happens when you die
He wasn't afraid and he pushed a glass in his wrist
And then there was a little girl, a bit older
But still little in her heart that wanted to know
How you can stop yourself from thinking
She wasn't afraid and she swallowed a bottle of pills.
They both fell down, and I will say
They died, and yet they wouldn't be here to tell if they did
However
They did something that day they would not tell to anyone
And hid the body they killed
In the hole in the backyard and bathroom
And now they shared it.

I will tell you a secret I have discovered
Life after death.
It's been so long since the boy and girl didn't count
Days and hours and minutes and seconds
A little too long
That the time elongated too much and now
They feel old
But grateful
That they've lived hard 'til now
So that everything becomes simple in the end.

I will tell you a secret I've discovered
Life after death.
The moment I almost lost my mind
Was the moment I realized
Nothing else is more important
Than to survive. Every day. Survive.
When they rape you and run. Survive
When they scream and you freeze. Survive
When they break your heart. When you want to die.
Survive.
Nothing lasts forever. The time and the pain,
The fun and the rain. There should be a cycle
A start. And an exit.
And I have found it. I have broken the cycle
I am out. And I am free.

I will tell you a secret
I have discovered
Even air tastes when you stop to notice
Your mind catches even the slightest of details
Your skin feels even the slightest of changes
The weather, the place. The love.
And love is a cloth. You wear it,
Even when he or she is not here
The body of love is in our hands
And we don't need to grab it
To know it won't leave us, never.