The body beast I

When I used to love you
I always imagined it would be the last time
For eight months my mind struggled to leave you
But my body grabbed onto you
Like a hurt beast
I will never understand my despair in going back to this
You in particular
Were the hardest to love
The cruelest to my broken body beast
The easiest to forgive
(Why?)
The only one I left
(I know why)
Perhaps you were just like me
Maybe this is why it was possible to leave you
When I leave myself all the time.